Catcher in the Rye #3

so yeah, i'm done with the book. it was a lot better than i thought it was going to be. i liked the end when he was watching Phoebe ride the carousel, but he wasn't riding it. i think Holden finally realized that he has grown since the beginning of the book and that he has gotten more mature. at least that's what i thought. 

i guess now that i think about it, Phoebe and Holden's relationship is like, stable. i actually come to like it now that i've finished the book. i think that Phoebe and Holden's relationship was what this book was about and the book surrounded around this idea. i wish i had that kind of relationship with someone, even though it's not brother and sister.

cause my brother's like.. 8.

but just with someone that i can pour out all my feelings, wrong or right, without being judged. everyone seems to be judged now, we're all judged by looks, what we say, who we hang out with.

i think Phoebe and Holden's relationship allowed them to be themselves and be able to express their ideas and stress and whatever they want freely.

i can't do that, cause everyone judges me. they don't know exactly who i am. people who think they know me most of the time don't. they think they understand situations that i'm going through but they are just trying to comfort me. i wish i could talk to someone thoroughly like phoebe and holden and  be comfortable with it without doubt that i've told that person things that i shouldn't have.